My daughter has always had trouble with sleeping at night. There are very few nights when she makes it until morning without waking and calling out for someone.
This fact became even more evident once we moved in with Jason's parents during our transition to Saipan. We have been living with them since December 2011, and she still wakes up at least once, most nights twice-3 times each night. Sometimes needing to go potty, wanting more milk (which I don't give in to), having a bad dream, being scared, the list goes on.
It makes me tired.
As the sole bread winner for our little family at the moment, all I want is to sleep a whole night through, sans midnight wake up calls. Waking up at 5:00 a.m. to get ready for work every day makes me tired enough. But, I also know that Emilia is going through a lot of changes right now and really has no idea exactly what is happening.
I try to be her constant. I try to always be comforting and supportive, instead of annoyed and irritated. She doesn't understand these changes and doesn't always know how to express her confusion and frustration.
So, last night when she started calling out for me at 1:45 a.m., I faithfully drug myself out of bed and made it to her room without tripping over the dog, or shoes, or anything (small victories, people). I peeked in her door and asked what she needed...
"Momma, I heed a kiss"
What sweet words from my little girl. This was one request I was happy to fulfill. I leaned over her bed, and gave her lots of little kisses. Once I stood back up, she rolled over and went back to sleep. That was that.
Do I still wish she could sleep all night? Yes. Am I looking forward to finally getting settled in Saipan and getting her back on a regular sleep schedule and retrain her sleep habits? Definitely. Would I trade her precious request for Momma's kisses at 1:45 a.m. for anything in the world? Not on your life.